Need help in getting my daughter back.

To Whom It May Concern:

My name is Stacy Yvette Massard and I am asking the courts to give me another opportunity to be a mother to my child. I know you are probably asking me the question why now after all these years have gone by. Well for all those years I just didn’t sit around and did noting. I have tried on several occasions to get my daughter back the one big issue was money it takes money to go to court. I have asked certain people for money even churches but they said they just didn’t have the funds to help. You are probably going to ask me another question how did my mother got custody in the first place, well when I was about 22 years of age I got into some trouble and went to jail for 2 years which was fraudulent  checks. I meet the father of my child when I was about 21 years old; you see I never knew what love was because my mother never give it to me. So what I thought was love to me I got for him, my entire mother would tell me when I was little is that I wish you were dead and that she hated me. She would beat me and my sister for any little thing. If you have ever seen the movie called Sybil with the actress Sally Field in it that was almost how me and my sister childhood was when I was 22 I went to an abuse shelter for women in Orangeburg, SC for mother abusing me. My sister was about 20 when she also went to the shelter to get away from my mother abuse. When she found out that I was pregnant with my daughter she tried to make loss my child by making me drink really hot coffee and taking castor oil so I could loss my daughter went that didn’t work she tried to killed me by putting a knife to my neck, but my sister beg and pled with my mother not to do it. So she decided to take me for away from the town we live in she took me from Holy Hill, SC to August Georgia where I was homeless and had no where to go. The last words she said to me is to us both a favor and just over a that bridge and kill yourself and the bitch inside of you. At one time I started to do it but I said to myself the devil is a lair. And I survived that ordeal and I than God that he was with me in the time of need. Another reason why I think I waited so long because I had low self esteem about me that I would be and good mother my mom still in so many way still had control of my mind like I was still that scared little girl, I guess what I am trying to say is I still feared her. Right now if you look at my face on the top of my forehead you will see a big scare that’s where she hit me in the head with a broom stick and dare me to tell my dad. She has also made me eat my own vomit on several occasions. When I was a little girl I had real bad nerves and I couldn’t keep food on my stomach so I would throw it right back up. If you would look in my daughters face she also has a scare in her face because she really don’t car for my daughter you probably asking how do I know this. well here are some ways I cant tell she mistreats my daughter she my her wear really big clothes like she use to do make she make her to pretend likes she is dumb and retarded so she can get a special needs check for her if you think my daughter is retarded just check her school records when she was in school she did really well that’s why she took my daughter out of school because she was afraid of my daughter doing so well that they would cut her special needs check off that she is getting for her about lying and saying my daughter is retarded. My mother lives in a two bed room apartment my 15 year old sister, grandmother and my daughter share a little tiny bed room everybody has a bed to sleep on except my daughter and she sleep on the hard floor I brought her a nice blow up bed so she can sleep more comfortable. Then sleeping on a hard floor but when I came back to visit her she had her sleeping on the hard floor again. In my opinion my mother isn’t qualify to be a home school teacher, because so don’t know how to spell or do math. I have went to college and I have did student teaching at Nix Elementary and Sub at Bowman High and Elementary and I don’t fell like I am qualify enough to be a home school teacher. I love my mom despite how she has treated me. I just have to let God handle her. I need my daughter back in my left so my life cant be complete because for al these year that I went by with out my life has been incomplete my mom don’t even let me take my daughter any where most of the time when I called and ask to talk to her she tell me no not right now. Life is so short I know I can be a good mother please just give me the chance. I just need a little help with attoreny fees please can you help me. My attorney name is Tina Herbert her office is in Columbia, SC her phone number is 803-779-2300. My # is 803-546-1795.